Thursday, January 13, 2011

A Pointless Post

My my, I haven’t made the best blogging start to the new year have I? Halfway through January and this is only my third post. Disgraceful! I have been a little preoccupied recently I suppose; I’ve all these half-baked notions and schemes that have been brewing up in the auld noggin for a while now and suddenly I’ve the urge to put them all into action at once.  As a result I’ve been a bit of an erratic mess, unable to concentrate on one project for long enough without feeling I should be directing my attention elsewhere.  And I know exactly why too- you know, psychologically and all that.

It’s because of my birthday. Which, incidentally, isn’t actually until next month but I’ve always mentally checked my age by the turning of the year.  So you see folks, in my head I am now 29- eek!  I never imagined I’d be the type to get freaked out by age, yet as these past years have drawn in at increasingly rapid speed I find myself facing ‘the big 3-0’ with a growing sense of impending doom. I know that once I get past it I’ll be grand, but before then I have to come to terms with the loss of my youth, dramatic as that sounds. And then there are all those things I’d hoped to have done by the time I resigned myself to absolute adulthood!

I was going to write a list, then I thought about it and realised that it would just make it even more depressing if I reached the end of the year not having completed all of the goals on it. Which would be pretty much inevitable since I’ve some pretty grandiose ambitions for the coming months. The whole point of this post was to share some of the said plans, but now that I’m here I realise I’m not quite ready to divulge the details just yet.  I’d probably just bore you all anyway. Which leaves me with a dilemma- what exactly is the point to this blog post?  I can’t seem to come up with one at the minute… Ah well, I’ve written it now so I’m still clicking ‘publish’!


JJ Beazley said...

In my opinion, the 30s is the best decade, Roisin. It's when the world gives you full respect, but you can still get away with doing kid's things if you want to.

AlphaBetsy said...

I have 3 months to my big 3-0 and I have made a list of things to do before that day, but I made it full of things I really feel like I could achieve. I am actually looking forward to being 30, maybe because I know that there are some amazing things waiting ahead. The Wedding. Getting my degree. Bring on the 30s. :)

Heathen said...

Oh honey, don't worry about turning 30. It's just a number after all. I know it sounds trite but it's true that you're only as old as you feel. Some days I'm still in my 20's, some days I'm 80, and some days I'm a 10 year old little girl! Never focus on your age, focus on who you want to be.

Gypsea Tree {Steam Spectre} said...

I know what you mean! I am turning 30 this spring and I have kind of fixated on it so long that sometimes when I realize I'm still going to be 29 for another 5 months, I can't believe how young I am! Haha! I have a sister who is ten years older than me and swears her life began after 30. I have always had pretty high hopes for when I reach that age, but some of those big fears as well.
I look forward to hearing about your plans whenever you are ready to share them! I also adore the "vintage" Star Wars posters. Aaron and I got some Battlestar Galactica ones that are similar. I feel a great need to own the Dagobah one. It will pair nicely with the Evolution of a Toaster poster... (you have to watch the series!) :-)

Such a Wondrous Place this Faery Space said...

Getting ready to teach, but needed a dear Irish girl's perspective, hee hee. I would love to send a card dear for your birthday! Blessings.

Anonymous said...

You'll love your 30s. I had a blast. I'm only 3 months away from the big 4-0, and I can't wait to see what the new decade will bring. One thing I've learned in my 30s: It's rather pointless to think you can "conquer the world." Enjoy what you have and don't sweat what you don't. You have so many years left. And no, you probably will not do everything you ever wanted to do. But sometimes the dream can be better.

KY Warrior Librarian said...

Sweetie...I turned 60 this year (twice your 30), which in many ways totally freaked me out...but in other ways is just fine (really). [Do I have a choice about it?] I vacillate back and forth with those feelings (is that normal? As John Burroughs said "I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see." Or it could be as simple as this quote from Charles Schulz "I think I've discovered the secret of life--you just hang around until you get used to it."

In the meantime, here's a few beautiful images to dwell on.

Róisín said...

Thanks so much for all the replies folks; you know, I think subconsciously I was probably looking for a little reassurance when I wrote this post! It was just one of those days. I’m over the mini-midlife crisis now and, rather unfortunately, back to my procrastinating ways! All your wise words and advice here really did help, and I really appreciate it. Don’t I just have the best blogging buddies ever? You’re all wonderful! Well, hope you’re all having a lovely day :)

p.s KY, just checked out the art work and it’s beautiful. Thanks!

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